9 Jun 2024
Dream
In my dream, I was in a very small apartment that we live, me and my son live there. I was waiting for him to come and it was late. And then he came, I was asking him to go to bed. We went to bed, we sleep at the same room. That apartment haven't had any bedrooms. So we slept at the same apartment, two sides, it was two different beds. So we slept on them. And then I had a dream. So in my dream, I had a dream while I was sleeping. So it was a kind of ceremony that in his school. So he was with his classmate girls, they have all dressed up. And they were running out. I was coughing and something comes out from my throat. I wanted to throw them away, throw them somewhere, clean up, but they haven't had any paper. So I took it with my hand and it was in my hand, so I had to throw it somewhere. I ran after that girls to go out, but I found they actually went inside church. So I was in church, all of a sudden I found myself in church. People were sitting and the priest was preaching. Then I saw a table and a Bible was open on that table in the middle of church and I was about to go and pick up a paper from that table which I saw someone pure water on that table and all the table and papers were wet and other it was a lady there used some paper toilet paper to dry them up so I was waiting for her to move away then I can pick up some paper and clean up my hand while I was trying to throw out what I was in my hand and look at the people sitting in church and listening to the priest and then someone hold me I saw it was a priest behind my back and he found out he has to pray for me so he put his hand behind my back and wanted to start to pray with smile for me and I feel some very very strange heavy feeling in me I thought maybe I have some devil spirit in me but actually it was very bad and I thought I'm going to lose control but I try still try to calming Then it's everything become dark and I all of a sudden woke up again in the same bed when I was in dream and I told myself oh it was a dream but still that person again start holding me from my back very tight and I couldn't breathe but I knew it's someone who loves me. So I told myself this is Kian or my older brother who has passed away long time ago in awakened life. So I tell even it's my brother who has passed away or it's my son but I saw my son was sleeping other side of the room so it wasn't him and I saw it's small hand for a boy I couldn't find who is this so I try push myself to turn to see his face and I saw kind of could recognize it's my brother and I said oh it's you it's you start smiling but his face was numb and scary and and I try and keep changing but I could still I tell myself no this is this is him this is him and I told him you're not going to hurt me you're not going to hurt me you're my little brother you're not going to hurt me but his hand was around my neck and we were both was laying on the floor because I was struggling to get free of him but I could just turn to see his face but I become I wasn't completely sure it's him or not but I just keep telling myself no it is him it is him he's not going to hurt me but I could feel at the same time the heavy hand around my neck I tried to make myself free and I was telling it with you and trying to shout and say that in a loud voice then my son will find out and will help me but seems like he couldn't hear maybe but I was trying and trying and trying to say it out loud to them if this noise can make him awake and help me out and while I was trying to sing his name and telling him that you're not going to hurt me and talk to that things who hold me tights, i woke up eithy owen voice
