24 Jun 2024
Dream
I was out in the town and there were a lot of new rules
Basically, there was a dictator that had taken over and the town rules were very limiting and against any crime or anything that could be perceived as crime. I was a student in school, and I didn’t fit in with the rest of the students. Our building caught on fire and we all had to run out and go to a hospital to be taken care of. When I got out of the hospital, I went to a thrift shop of sorts and saw the only shirt or jacket or some thing that I had owned hanging up to be sold. So I went to get the jacket and I asked the storekeeper hey this is my jacket from the accident, can I have it back? The storekeeper said I would need to pay to get the jacket back and I told him I did not have any money but that it was my only belonging. He said I could not get it back without paying so I took it when I went to see my classmates, and ask them what they would’ve done and then I had taken it. They were very upset with me for breaking the rules and stealing some thing, even though it was mine and taken from me. I’m out on the streets trying to exist in the town doesn’t like me. I get taken to a detention center/jail for kids where they trained you but really were torturing you through games and situations that kids ahould not have been in. I remember being in the woods a lot and my brother was there with me. My family kept coming to try and find me and get me out. I believe they framed the place as a school and I was a tennis player and my family wanted to make sure that I was still playing tennis and to see a game. I was not playing tennis because I was being tortured through these activities. They did not let my family in and kept me doing activities. I don’t remember a lot of the activities but one of the main ones was this game in a pool. Before the game they gave us a explanation as to why we were doing it. In the explanation, they talked about how men were out of war where they had to hide underwater for four hours, and have combat underwater or they would’ve been shot from above. Job to stay underwater without being detected by each other or found alone by the other team. I was one of the first people in the water able to start getting ready and cleaning our side of the pool, so I worked very hard. They told us that we could collect the leaves off of the floor to improve our gameplay. We could also put the leaves on the boys side to make them play worse. I was collecting leaves and scraping up algae when I was found by the other team. The collecting leaves and scraping of algae, was supposed to be done by a teammate of mine that had a developmental and intellectual delay Skill issues and autism. This individual was actually a student of mine and my real life last year that I had trouble connecting with and working with because she was not advanced enough to be in my class. She was upset with me because it was her scrape the leaves, but I knew that she would put our team behind so I did it quickly for her and then set her up for success by doing most of it so that as the leaves came in the game, she could keep up. She was very upset with me for doing so, I would also like to note that I myself have autism and adhd but I am thrice exceptional because I was also a gifted student because of my high IQ scores as a child. I mask and hid my autism better than others can so I wasn’t formally diagnosed in my real life. I often in waking find myself judging others with the same disorders as myself for not learning and adjusting to the world like I have from a place of ableism.
Continuing with the dream.
I was the first person on my team found while I was cleaning I went to a center where I was on my own outside of the door to the pool. The game was eventually over and the person in charge came to me and he wanted everyone to smile and look him in the eyes so he can figure out what team to place us on tomorrow. he said he was using our eyes when he got to me. He had trouble seeing my eyes because I wasn’t in the same place as everyone else I told him they were steel blue and he said everyone else has had steel blue eyes as well. Which is weird to me because blue eyes is not a very common eye color, the next thing I know I’m able to run away from this camp and go into town. I find myself in a convenience store where there is coffee, popcorn, and drinks and candy. I am looking around. I find coffee and I get some snacks then consciousness shifts to the front of the store and I watch a woman check out. She has random things ring up on her item and they are confused but don’t like me so figure it’s my fault and walk back to me. I occasionally have OCD in waking life when it comes to cleaning I get an in a mood where I will start cleaning and I can’t stop until someone stops me. It’s an unhealthy behavior, but I get a lot done and I’m going to have to clean my apartment today. in the dream I had gotten into an OCD state and kept making coffee after coffee for people popping popcorn, scanning candy and other items and it was all piling up around me. The shopkeeper and ladies started yelling at me for what I had done, but we looked to the side, and there was a curtain that was moving because there were a ton of people that had arrived to buy the things that I was making as if I was a barista, which is the small town did not have. They could not be upset with me and I continued making coffee until something happened and I walked outside like a little explosion. I looked down at my feet in the snow and I saw a rat. I heard my brain say there is a rat in the shop, no more coffee. it was as if my brain was exiting OCD mode because it was grossed out by some thing. People wanted more coffee and I said no and walked away because I was no longer in that mental space.
it became late, so I blocked back towards the forest and it was as if I was seeing snow in my eyes and I was excited, and then when that OCD mode shifted everything kind of turned red, and my brain was upset. I knew it was time to get my brother out of the camp because it was over so I walked towards the forest. I was looking for the water. Our family had brought because that was the only way to get people out of the camp. I saw lots of families and students from the camp walking out of the forest towards their vehicles, but I could not find my family or our water. So I kept walking in the forest and eventually I ran into a tall man that was in my family, possibly my dad or husband I was unclear at that point. I looked to the side and I see my belongings and my brothers belongings, there is a baby stroller in the middle recognized that I had forgotten at that time. I saw my purse, my jacket and other belongings on the side of the post piled up a baby carrier on the floor and my brothers items on the other side on a different post. There was not a baby in the baby carrier so I picked it up to put it on the stroller and couldn’t get it attached correctly. my husband walked over at that moment and told me that I didn’t have the baby carrier on correctly as I was already loading my belongings into the baby carrier so that I can get out of the park. I went to the side to fix it and as I was fixing it, I heard a younger brother walk up to my husband saying he was still holding the baby to my husband, and my husband said that’s OK you’ll have to keep holding him. I had a sense of the baby was a boy and his name was possibly Freddy. I did not see the baby, but I kept picking up Lauren and loading the stroller. We started walking towards the back of park to find my brother and then my alarm went off and woke me up.
