3 Aug 2024
Dream
i dreamt that my best friend nova came over to my house and it was storming and raining and the wind was so loud that you could hear it blow through the house like the walls were made of straw, i felt an ominous sensation like something bad would happen but having nova there joking about how shitty my house was made me feel a little better, there was a hole in my ceiling somehow and nova was stressing about trying to fix it, it was night time the entire dream even when i went to sleep and once i woke up nova was gone, but there were new neighbors in my neighborhood and a group of kids in my age group came with them. i ignored them because i prefer to stay to myself, but in the dream i was trying to learn how to skate because my friend li started to teach me and i never got very far. so i'd go out at night and try to skate and those kids were always watching me and i didnt know why. they would try to talk to me and i'd say a few words then walk away because i wasn't interested in befriending them but i wanted to be cordial. one night i went out and one of the boys from the group came to talk to me. he seemed like a nice kid so i tried to engage in the conversation, i was walking as i talked though so he was following me, then once i was far away from my house i noticed the rest of the boys from the group were following me too, and among that group were 2 boys who have sexually assaulted me in the past suddenly i didnt feel safe so i tried to slowly walk away from them but they kept following me, then one of the boys who'd assaulted me said "hey why don't we all agree that we should just rape this bitch" and he grabbed me and i started screaming no and trying to fight him off me but there were about 5 or 6 guys including the one who i initially thought was a nice kid, he seemed like the youngest of the group so he was just going along with whatever they did and he seemed to have a crush on me so i guess in his mind he felt it would be convenient to follow after them. i kept screaming and crying then i woke up crying i was covered in sweat and my room felt like a volcano,, i fell back asleep a few moments later then there was a woman and she had swords all around her house and she told me i needed to learn to protect myself and that she'd teach me,, she let me start learning to fight with a sword by lending me a small dagger that she attached to a spear, i had a lot of fun training with her and gained an emotional attachment to her like a guardian figure, but every now and then i'd hear loud banging coming from a room in her house. one day the banging was the loudest it had ever been and she told me she'd be right back and it was probably best if i left, and that she'd called my mom to come pick me up. i stayed while she went into the room and i heard her talking to someone, she was telling them to calm down and that she would figure out a way to help them go back to who they were before, but then i heard her screaming, i went to see what happened and there was a monster i cant even describe and it had clawed through her chest and bit off her head, i ran to the other room and opened the window and ran, i kept running and i knew not to go back home because i didnt want to guide that thing to my house since it was only a few blocks away. i then remembered she told my mom to go there to pick me up and i started to panic thinking it would get to my mom, so i texted her urging her not to go to the house or go back home and to drive far away from there, and she said okay and i told her i was going to try and go to my boyfriends house since it was far away, but the thing kept chasing me, eventually i reached the city and some group of people caught the monster and killed it. i was already afraid and in shock so i still wanted to see my boyfriend so i kept going. eventually i somehow got stuck in a jail but not as a prisoner, the police told me in order to get out i had to go on a detour through the prison to get to the exit. while i walked through the prison i got catcalled and mocked by the prisoners and although the police "ordered" the prisoners not to touch me they'd still grope and harass me and it made me uncomfortable. the police told me i wasnt allowed to bring my shoes in so i left them at the door expecting them to give them back to me at the exit but once i got there they told me i wasn't supposed to leave them and that somebody probably had already took them by now. i was really upset because i'd worn my dcs with my bone attachments and those were my favorite shoes so i went back inside hoping to find them, but i got lost once i went back in
