11 Oct 2024
Dream
so I'm in a castle there's lightning it also looks like a school built in with the castle so it's like Hogwarts like one of those old classic like gothic-y type settings it's giving dark academia
and I am hiding okay scratch that before that I am an angel of sorts apparently and I have a boy with me and I'm hiding him and myself from the student committee members or like the school prefect or the teacher whoever it is that like basically like regulate stuff in the school
And in front of school because(it’s built on some steep hill or mountain edge) there is a valley or like a steep slope it kind of looks like the one from Sekiro the game(Set in Medieval Japan, warring period; fantasy-action)
And I'm basically camouflaging myself and the boy, covering him with my wings or whatever and basically camouflaging my whole self and just like my surroundings as the grass on the mound, like the shifting scapes at the bottom of the valley. Because everything around me is basically just flora and fauna. And one of them who came down to search basically like pokes where I am(me) with a staff or whatever out of suspicion, but I don't react and they, yeah, go away with a pompous ‘hmph’.
So this scene kind of changes tonight abruptly(we’re still at the same place though), and I basically like fly the boy back to his dorm sector in the castle.
It’s raining, I think. Yeah it is also like thundering and stuff; it's a whole ass storm, yeah, but it's raining, it's nice. Like the castle, like the silhouette of it it looks like it's kind of faintly glowing blue, pale blue? I don't know, maybe it's the lightning doing the tricks on my eyes.
and now it's like 2 in the morning like 2 22 a.m. or whatever angel numbers and there's like a sound of some kind of an instrument that wakes everyone up. yeah and it's still raining, it's kind of stormy. And I'm in like this room right, when(I suppose I'm back to being human somewhat) there's like a guy's voice announcing that like some “The Angel (whatever-their-name-is) is here; sing the hymn, bring your petitions everyone” and like everyone is gathering to like the room that I was sleeping in. Apparently I was like sleeping in like a communal lounge or whatever but it does look like a solitary room so I don't know. Kind of stony, kind of medieval, kind of looks cold. The kind that you would see in like folkloristic illustrations of a castle where there's like knights and like princesses and stuff, you know what I mean?
And like the angel is here? everyone is gathered, like everyone is in a line or whatever to, like, basically get their petitions heard, And like the angel? Oh my god, they look so like ethereal. Loke they're blue pale like glowing apparition of some kind of like a tall figure; there's like faintly like a silhouette of some wings behind it it's beautiful.
And like when it’s my turn, I ask them how I can get good at magic and astrology. They ask me where my north node and my south node is. My north node is in the 9th, my south node in the 3rd. He tells me to go ask Haiaiel, another angel. When I tell him that I have my moon and mercury in my 9th house. And because I have my Jupiter in the 3rd house and in the sign of Libra. And because it's retrograde, he tells me to basically let go of my need for control. And to sort of basically depart from what I think is a dogmatic way of thinking. Even if I might think that I am an unconventional person on a conscious level. There still is that level of perfectionism and dogmatism and this fixation with control. He tells me to look to my 5th house and my 7th house, the houses that are like 2 apart from each other measuring from 3rd and the 9th house. I ask him what if I had my Pluto in my 5th house. He basically tells me to not be afraid, be courageous about taking an unconventional path when it comes to your creativity, that is your magic, arts, and whatever inspires you to live in your life. He also tells me to like pay attention to the way I use my creativity as like this source of subconscious and unconscious power, a means for control in my life, an upheaval, to accept that okay there are some extreme sides to me but to not be afraid of it because being afraid of it and repressing it only makes it come out in a more maligned way.
When I tell him that I have my Neptune in my 7th house as well as my Chiron, the asteroid. He tells me to tap into it basically. Use the imagination that you have and you use to romanticize, glamorize, and idealize your interpersonal relationships and your limerence into your creative activities. And that includes magic.
magic is all about subconscious beliefs and all that the efficacy of it at least is. so the fantasy component, the depth, use it. The moon and mercury in my ninth house as well as my north node basically tells me to follow what your inner guidance, your intellect and my intuition tells you to do. Like sure your foundations could be built on the like the traditional approach that, you know, your Jupiter facilitates in your learning it, but to define what really works You you, you have to do it yourself. you have to take the initiatives. You have to try and fail you have to be courageous; have not like any sort of fixed way of thinking without carefully evaluating it. And even then do question alway. Hone in on the clarity your inner intellect and voice provides. Practice trusting your intuition. Practice discernment between you know what is conscious and subconscious. Also he just like basically really really just pushes me to like seek Haiaiel’s guidance.
And after that I basically thank him and go away, and he moves on with answering everyone else's petitions and questions and prayers, yeah. And I watch from the bed.
