28 Nov 2023
Dream
This wasn’t my latest dream but a few months ago I got stuck in a “dream loop”, I like to call it. At first the dream started out normal enough, I was in an apartment I didn’t recognize, sitting on a loveseat with my ex-boyfriend Jeremy. Next to us on a different couch were my mother and stepfather. In front of us was a dining table with multiple chairs. There were a few people seated there and one of them was this pale red headed girl who I had never seen before, but I remember thinking she was beautiful. I walked toward her and she smiled up at me and I started to tell her how beautiful she was when suddenly her face began to contort and her eyes and smile both widened and suddenly she looked terrifying. I accidentally uttered out loud “You’re scary”, to which she responded by standing up, looming what seemed to be 10 feet tall, and as she did so she maintained eye contact with me, still grinning. An overwhelming sense of dread washed over me and I felt panicked. Suddenly I “woke up” on the couch in my Mamaw’s living room (where I was actually sleeping) except I began to notice that everything was slightly “off”. I was still dreaming. I went into my Mamaw’s room and woke her up to tell her about the terrifying nightmare I had just had and when she sat up and looked at me her face began to contort and seemed to melt almost. I ran out of her room and back onto the couch, trying to force myself back asleep. I “woke up” again on the couch and ran into Mamaw’s room to tell her about the dream of her face changing and she seemed normal enough but when I went to look at my phone I noticed it was all wrong and didn’t look right. I remained stuck in this dream loop of “waking up” or thinking I had woken up then realizing I’m still dreaming over and over until suddenly the dream changed and I was with my roommates (who do not exist in real life) and we were walking up a long dark staircase toward presumably our apartment. There was a tall dark figure of a man standing at the top of the staircase just staring — he had no face. I neared the top of the staircase and noticed our apartment door was open. A sense of dread overcame me and I went inside quickly trying to avoid the figure outside at the top of the stairs and when I went inside it was dark and dusty and all the furniture had white sheets on it. My roommates disappeared and I stayed in the apartment for a while longer and then I woke up back in the dream loop, thinking I was awake but actually still asleep. Eventually I actually woke up and my daughter came out into the living room and it scared me because I thought maybe I was still dreaming and I didn’t want to see her face contort or anything like Mamaw’s did, but I actually was awake this time. I was too scared to go back to sleep and spent a while crying and dealing with the negative emotions that came from it.
