8 May 2024
Dream
I'm holding my two year old daughter Abby, I'm in front of a living room window. I kneel down to pick something up and put on her shoes. I look out the window and see the bus I was waiting for, to pick her up for daycare, is across the street, but it's leaving. I run after it with her in my arms. It's too late. Someone points out it's stopped at its next stop down the street. I keep running and approach a 4 lane highway, on a normally busy street but it's clear, in fact it's deserted, there isn't anyone else around at all. I cross the road quickly and hand my daughter to a passenger on the bus.
Suddenly I'm at a party, an outdoor party, but it's wrapping up. It's the next day and apparently I forgot to pay my bill/for my ticket and owe $100. I pull out my check. I already had it filled out I just forgot to sign it and hand it over, here you go. And I hand it off to Evan an old friend from high school, all grown up now. I ask when the reunion will be, he says I'm sorry you weren't invited you weren't in good standing because you hadn't paid your bill. He privately apologizes, "John if I had known you were here...' He assured me I'll be on the guest list at the next event provided I stay in good standing.
I leave feeling sad, ambivalent and confused. I was dropping off my daughter! And I missed her bus, I didn't realize I hadn't paid the bill.
