3 Mar 2024
Dream
In my dream, I had just gotten out the shower and went to my room. My room looked kind of empty like how it does now, being that Iโm moving out today. So in my dream, Iโm putting on shea butter and then Lawrence (my childโs father) comes busting into my room, drunk and naked. He had his red contacts in so his eyes looked crazier than normal, as she was stumbling up to me, pointing his finger in my face. Iโm trying to tell him Iโm not decent and he says โdonโt nobody care about thatโ as he looks me up and down then kind of just stares at my body as Iโm trying to walk towards my closet for some clothes. I think he slurred โcome back here! Iโm talking to youโ and I said โIโm not talking to you in this state and Iโm donโt with this bullshit like, look at you!โ Heโs like โoh, donโt worry about this, Iโm good. Why are you leaving?โฆ Answer me!โ I donโt quite remember the rest of the dreams conversation with him but I remember being uncomfortable when he busted in my room as I was naked and then I got angry because he wouldnโt physically or verbally leave me alone, telling me I โwasnโt shitโ but was still following me around the room which felt like it was larger the more he followed behind me. My room had started out its regular size but the more I walked around, I realize now that the room kept getting bigger, the more I walked around. He kept trying to make me feel like crap with his words but Iโm so done with that man, the words in this dream and the way he speaks to me in reality, thereโs no coming back from the damage.