Dream Of Skydiving And Loneliness

I was on an airplane, I am uncomfortable and the seat is very small and it's cold. I am about to ask the stewardess for a blanket when the man next to me hands me his "here you look like you could use this" I thank him and cover up I see a video or highlight reel of me in my late 20's /early 30's. I'm much younger and thinner than now, and wearing glasses. I see a letter from the Army informing me I've been selected to represent my unit in PT. I qualified with a certain score on my fitness test and now I get to compete and it tells me the score range I need to achieve in order to move forward. I see this younger version of myself lonely and scared and crying. I see him jump out of the airplane (as if sky diving). I recall that I got hurt and injured and became disabled and had to leave the Army. So broken compared to who i used to be. I am very sad.