Dream Of Arguments And Transformation

I had a dream, it goes like this...It was night, rain pouring gently... but I don't mind the cold when I'm warm inside, I'm beside with my boyfriend,  talking about plans of being more productive (exercise) with their family as more like a bonding cause I can see its really important to him. And he was asking me what do I do about it... and I go like type in my phone for a quirky remark... as I walk a familiar road. And he was trying to look at my phone, and I don't show him... suddenly, his face darken.colder. and I notice the shift immediately. I followed him, the smile on my lips vanishing into worry and confusion as I show him my  phone to show my reply to his question - or that I'm not doing anything wrong. I followed him through the market then through a crowd of people in the hill (it was lively there) and we dampen the mood cause he's walking fast and I follow him.we got into argument. people looking at us, murmuring. And that happens more in different time but same setting, and every time, I was left hurt and confuse. until one day, another fight same situation, same cold shoulder. but this time, I let go his hand as he walk away from me. And I walk too... Up, up, up,  in the civilization away from the hill... now hitting the road tracks, the guys/tambay from kanto(side of the street) looking at me... as if they saw something catching... while I'm just on rags cause of my so boyfriend (I'm single in real life) their eyes followed me with awe as if they saw an eye candy. and instead of being flattered I was creeped/weirded out, but I keep walking and walking up, finding a store, stopping for a rest. little girls looking at me with adoration, commenting about it as they bycicle around the road. Then, one of them eyeing my things, money and phone stuff...commenting about it...and I was cautious. So, I left but they're following me... surroundinme... And I feel more alarm... then suddenly they're in my size...no longer little girls... as they pick on me. And then, I pick a rock. As I was to turn away, they got in my way and I hit someone with it in the back of their head, sending them back with it to the other left side. the others attack and I keep hitting them. then for some reason I got a knife, and I point it to the neck of the girl I'm pinning by the window. then, this other girl watches, standing as is she saw something fascinating, then she took that knife from me and stabbed the girl in the neck herself... many times as the blood gushed out... and then I turn into the girl, and she looks at me knowingly with the half lidded smile as I took her life by hitting her head. Then, I was about to burn the evidence in the middle of the road, daylight, and I was a man this time (no longer the girlfriend ) and then the papers fly away... because of some guys/buddy disrupt it in the air, then somehow I was in their vehicle... At first I was asking politely to turn the car or stop... and They're like no... and were still buddy-buddy. and after trying so many times. my voice hardens. we got into argument as I jumped out. checking out my phone, seeing the evidence of my brutality cropped into a single one thing...and I saw my post... all hypocrisy and even a clue...  Then, I went to the Google maps, saw where the papers had fall and see it's falling in the water where the authorities that can jail me could see. So panicked when over me as I jump, grabbing a boat as I follow the boats ahead of me going to "White House" and I speed up... arriving and crushing... causing commotion... the "White House" (A Mansion of Authorities. it was big.) and then I saw blue and red. Police. and the policeman came to arrest me. cuffing me. looking at me as if I still have hope... redemption... as I feel the tears roll of my eyes.