Dream About Sobriety And Confronting Cops

OK, so my dream last night I feel like we were in New York so we moved to New York. The boys and I I had bought this huge stone house it was mansion and for some reason I had invited Bernie and a bunch of his friends to my new mansion in New York, I think I was there for work for some reason too, butthe day before all these other people that I haven’t seen in a really long time I have this party and we have like all these people there and they’re drinking and they’re doing cocaine. Everybody is just wildly effed up and I remember coming down the steps in basically being presented with a with a choice did I want to partake? Did I wanna break my six month streak of sobriety and I didn’t I didn’t want to do that. I didn’t want to give up that sobriety so all these people are at my house and this cop shows up, but he’s like not an actual cop like he is a cop but like he’s in street clothes he’s off duty and I let him in because I have nothing to hide because I’m not fucked up even though everybody in my house is messed up I don’t care about letting them in and he’s like oh I’m gonna bust everybody in here and I said the fuck you are and I like pick him up by almost like his collarbone and I take him outside and I said listen to me, motherfucker I don’t know where you think you are but in this house you’re not gonna show up and tell me what you’re gonna do you’re an off duty cop I’ve done nothing wrong to these people might be fucked up and then like in that same moment, somebody like I don’t know who it was, but it’s like blowing cocaine like all over the place that was bad, but I continued belittling the cop and saying that they have no idea what I’ve gone through that I lost everything and I was able to put it all back together and I worked my ass off to get back to where I am and he’s not gonna take it away from me not for a party. It’s not gonna happen prior to this dream though which is interesting. I was moving furniture with Pastor Dave from church and he had a maroon truck and it was called like Dave Barr instead of Dave Barr moving company and I was helping him move furniture and during one of our experiences of moving together in my dream. The dresser starts to collapse on my hands that doesn’t hurt and he’s looking at me as a care. Let me help but I’m like it’s OK and he’s like no it’s like it’s crushing you and I was like it’s OK. I got this. It was interesting to me that feeling of feeling crushed but still being able to say I got this and walk with it. It wrapped up that we went to my friend Rachel‘s apartment in New York to actually do work and it was like a really really small apartment. There’s a lot of dog hair for some reason on her couches and stuff and she got really upset because her boyfriend in the dream I guess was also sober was supposed to be sober and he had been at the party at my house the night before and she was still like partying and she was so upset with him because she’s like I thought we were past that and yeah I don’t know the feeling that I woke with is just like we have to stop trying so hard to prove ourselves to other people were enough. We are enough just as we are and drugs and alcohol aren’t the answer trying to escape whatever it is that’s weighing you down isn’t the answer.