Dream About Schizophrenic Killer In Hospital

Once again, I had a dream It was about me Having some kind of disorder. It was like I was schizophrenic I was sadist Sociopath, psychopath, you name it It was night and I was walking down the street. I saw a lot of people and my only talk I had was to kill them. I couldn't stop myself. It felt like something was guiding me to them I heard lots of voices in my head Telling me that they hurt me, they will hurt me, they warn me, the voices I came to these people, there were like 20 of them All of them had blurred faces, you couldn't even tell if they were women or men I took out my knife and killed one by one of them There was blood everywhere, I had a crazy smile on my face, it was like I couldn't control myself, something was controlling me Once I killed all the people who were there, I started to laugh like a maniac I fell down to the bodies and started to cry as I realized what a mistake I made Within a second I started to laugh again Taking all the blood I drained from them, I started to choke myself with it I covered my whole body in the blood When I was all messy I took the bodies one by one and started cutting the parts of it Then I took a gun and started shooting at them Once the bodies were all messed up I called someone but I couldn't see, it was a male voice In the next few minutes a black van pulled up in there And some person, probably a man, he was really tall, like two and a half meters He was all covered in black and had a mask on his face He helped me to put all the bodies of the 20 people in the van He told me that I am crazy and that I should go take my meds Then he drove the car back to some abandoned house Where we got to the basement and unlocked it and put all the remaining parts of the bodies in there Then I took out the gas and started spraying it in the basement Next I asked him if he could give me a cigar Which I lighted up, I didn't know, I couldn't think that the whole place would light up The whole place would light up as I sprayed gas there before The whole place light up and the bodies started to burn Me and the man ran out of the house and watched the house being burned In the next seconds there was an ambulance and firefighters who were trying to get rid of the fire And the ambulance was searching us if we are injured Since I was all covered in blood they asked me what did I do I had to lie that I got very badly burned They took me to the hospital. In the hospital, they told me that I have a really bad illness and I would die in a few days The man I told before showed up there and he said that karma is real and he knew that all the bad things I did will come back to me But he said one thing that absolutely broke me in a second. He said that even though I'm crazy, I'm dangerous and whatever, that he loves me. And then he took off his mask, but I couldn't see his face, it was all blurred. I couldn't even see what the color of his hair or eyes were. He started saying how much he is even crazy to me, he would do everything to help me. And for the past day of my life, he visited me every day. And then one night I could see that I died, but my soul was sitting in the window and watched everything happened. The man who sent, who loved me, he used my body for his own uses, the doctors and medics never find it out. They buried me in some kind of grave. I never got the stone, you get your name right on it now, they just burned me, and the dust they let fall into the river, but the river was weird, it was all bloody red, and it looked very toxic. And then I woke up from the dream.