Reekah, your dream presents a fascinating interplay of familial dynamics, personal ambition, and underlying tensions. Marrying a man and having kids in your dream could symbolize societal expectations or internalized norms about family life, despite your non-binary identity. This might reflect a subconscious exploration of traditional roles and how they align or conflict with your self-perception and personal desires.
The setting of staying with your husband's mother for a vacation introduces a layer of external judgment and scrutiny. The mother-in-law's passive-aggressive behavior represents a source of external stress and conflict, mirroring perhaps some real-life interactions where you feel misunderstood or unfairly judged. This could be linked to your frequent stress and anxiety, as well as the sense of sadness you often feel.
Your confrontation with the mother-in-law showcases your assertiveness and unwillingness to tolerate disrespect. This is a powerful theme, indicating your desire to stand up for yourself and not be undermined. However, her dismissive responses could symbolize the challenges you face in having your feelings and perspectives validated by others.
The failed party you were setting up might represent your efforts in life that you feel are not meeting expectations, whether these are your own or those imposed by others. The mother-in-law's silent judgment could be a manifestation of the fear of failure and the pressure to succeed, which ties back to the significant life changes and financial stress you are experiencing.
When the conversation shifts to academic achievements, your accomplishment in mechatronics engineering and biotechnology surprises her. This could symbolize your inner recognition of your capabilities and intelligence, even if others fail to acknowledge them. Your husband's remark about your potential future earnings adds a layer of validation to your self-worth, juxtaposed against the mother-in-law's petty demeanor.
Finally, the meal scene, filled with anticipation of another negative comment, signifies a lingering sense of impending criticism and the constant need to defend yourself.