26 Jul 2026
Dream
I had a dream that started with me and my mother wanting to go back to Emerald Isle, North Carolina. It’s a really beautiful beach, and in real life we actually wanted to go back there for about three days. In the dream, we did end up going back, and we were staying at a nice, big hotel with two double beds. It was really lovely. I think it was me, my mother, and my auntie Norris, even though she doesn’t really live in North Carolina in real life. Most of my family lives in Florida, but I think she went with us in the dream anyway.
I remember being a little annoyed at first because I didn't want her to be with us on the trip. The next morning, my mom and I got in the car and drove around Emerald Isle trying to find a nice place to take a picture. I was trying to find an entry point, but I don’t think we found one, so we just went back to the hotel.
At some point, I was in the hotel bathroom on my phone, and someone who was interested in me told me they were in a polyamorous relationship with two other people. The person was a guy, and I was confused because I’m a lesbian in the dream and also in real life. I felt conflicted, but in the moment I guess I was somewhat into it.
Then I kind of got transported into the situation, and he was talking about how our sex would go and how he had two other partners. At one point, his two other partners pulled his pants down, and I noticed he was small. I didn’t say anything mean, but I did think about it in my head. I was more interested in other people he had with him, so he got the message and left the room.
Then the two other people came in, and that part got weird because they had scary masks on. The guy had a scary mask too, but he took it off. One person had a scary dolphin mask, and the other had a scary horror mask. I don’t know why they were wearing them, but they took them off. Then this girl pulled her pants down, and I noticed that she had a thick dick but also had boobs, so I was confused. The other person didn’t want to get anything off and just kind of stayed to the side, watching me and the other person cuddle on the bed while there was a laptop there. I wanted the cuddle, not because I was into them, but because I have felt alone for a long time and didn't know how hugging another person felt like.
Then we got teleported to another bedroom in the same position, but it was a different room. I don’t know if it was their bedroom, but it felt cozy and familiar. It had a wide bed with white sheets and a window in front of us. I told the girl I was not into them, and she seemed a little hurt, but they took it well. She asked if I was just not into guys, I said yes, but what I really meant was that I’m not into penises. I tried to be into it, but I just couldn’t do it like that.
After that, I ended up in a Waffle House with the two people, not the small penis guy. I was sitting across from them in a booth, and they were sitting next to each other being lovey dovey, so then I got up and went outside onto the sidewalk while they stayed behind me. The girl, who was a trans woman, sat at the bench, and I guess they wanted me to sit with them, but I said no. I told them I was sorry, but I couldn’t do this. I got some of my stuff from the sidewalk, including an unraveled umbrella and some books.
Then I saw this beautiful nature area, and I heard a song playing in my mind called “Back to Friends” by Sombr. From that point on, the song was playing in my head. I started to run, then jump, and I glided down this beautiful valley with green grass, a little lake nearby, and a lot of trees. I remember this area because it was in one of my previous dreams too. It looked so nice and familiar. I jumped again and glided farther down, almost into the lake, but I turned my body so I wouldn’t fall in. Then I laid down in a grassy patch where the trees were barely covering part of the lake. It was beautiful.
One of the guys ran down the hill to check on me, and I told him I was sorry and that I was crying because I couldn’t do this. I said I wasn’t from North Carolina and that I was supposed to be in Florida right now. I was crying because I saw how loving they were with each other, and I felt emotional because I couldn’t be there for them like that. I couldn’t be their girlfriend. I’ve always felt alone in real life, so the dream really brought that out. It felt like everyone around me suddenly had a girlfriend or boyfriend or was in a happy, healthy relationship, but I always ended up alone.
The guy was just there for me, and I couldn’t tell what gender they were. I think they might have been non-binary. While I was crying, I thought of a church, and then I was teleported into one. I was sitting in a pew while everyone else was worshipping, but I still felt alone, so I went to a corner and started crying again. I remember seeing myself crying from a third-person view. I was really upset and didn’t feel spiritual at all. I just felt alone again.
I think there may have been a bar there too, and I was trying to drink something, but I was still very upset. Then I think I teleported back to the nature area, and after that I woke up in tears.
