Pushing

28 Jun 2024

Dream

I was at school and some kid I know pushed me off some huge window and o survived

27 Jun 2024

Dream

I was in my house when my friend from next door came over asking me to play a new game of his.i said no and told him to leave so i could do some work,i close the door on him but when i step back and walk away he uses a trick key to enter the house i tell him i dont enjoy him entering the house since i have a sister in the back, in reality i dont, he mocks and makes fun of me when i kick him out this time,when i push him outside his two best friends are waiting in front when they ask if im coming to hang i say not today,they call me names like loser and fag but ignore and go to grab my mail with became a big pile,i grab the door and its locked and the three of them laugh cause the next door friend locked it behind me, he unlocks it but wont open the door even with my hands full and another knocks the mail from my hands and they all laugh as i try to get in the house while also trying to stop me from going in

24 Jun 2024

Dream

In waking-life I have only daughters. In my dream I was taking my youngest two daughters to a modelling agency, to see if I could get them signed. The girls were dressed impeccably, with their hair in golden curls and they were behaving demurely and politely. They modelling agency was in an old building, very elegant and refined with polished wood and antique furniture. The women working at the agency were also impeccably dressed and coiffured. There was soft classical music playing. The whole atmosphere was of quiet refinement. All of a sudden there was an electric guitar riff that shrieked through my dream, and my heart sank as I knew what was coming - I knew it was my sons (that I don't have in waking life.) From around the corner on the street outside, a double pram careened on two wheels, and raced towards me. Nobody was pushing it, it was propelled by the raw energy of the two toddler boys strapped into the side-by-side seats. They were laughing uproariously, spraying potato chips and drinks out of the pram as they sped towards the agency. They were sticky with peanut butter and other food, their hair was standing up, and they were pure wild energy. I thought "thank goodness theyre strapped in" and was relieved to see that the pram was too wide to fit through the modelling agency doors. I felt no shame of my sons, I was proud of them, but glad they wouldn't be able to destroy the serene environment, that it was safe from their wildness. I turned to the women running the agency, and with great dignity and a genuine smile, I gestured to these wild creatures outside the door and said " ...and these are my boys." They nodded mutely, aghast. I woke up laughing.

20 Jun 2024

Dream

I dreamt that my ex pushed me down and spat on me

2 Jun 2024

Dream

I dreamed about me go downstairs in a house to find my boyfriend talking to this brown skinned girly with a lanyard around her shoulders , he was hugging and kisses her , and then I pushed him to the ground all mad , I heard the name white

20 May 2024

Dream

I’m not sure how I am in acquaintance with this woman, but I was with a black woman and she was driving. She had a child with her. We stopped at the store and the child was simply talking to herself and the woman backhanded her. We got back in the car. The woman was driving, and she became unstable in her reactions. I didn’t initiate it, but she started falling out of the car door and I pushed her. I was going to drive the car away with the child in it. It was like there were two endings to the dream one that I jumped into the driver seat and drove away, and the second was that someone else jumped into the driver seat and drove us away. I don’t know who the other person was but they felt safe.

30 Apr 2024

Dream

I'm in a car with my mom and brother. She drives up a very high hill and there's a McDonald's. A little bit pass that, there's Dunkin donuts. We go through the Dunkin Donuts drive-through. I order a bagel with butter and cream cheese on one side and butter and avocado on the other side. The woman is a little surprise I ordered it. I know my food is almost ready but my Mom decides to leave. I ask her what if we can't find our way back. She says,"We will." The car drives all the way down the hill. We get out of the car and start pushing it. My brother doesn't want to go back in the car but I convince him to get back in. I didn't want him to be left alone because I didn't know how long it's going to take for us to push the car back up. The car starts driving on its own. My brother is out of the car with us. I'm worrying about not able to get the car back. We catch up with the car. There's an old man my brother is talking to. We start pushing the car again up the hill. We go through a building without the car. April is with us now. In the building, I see two guys. One likes me and the other likes April. But they're shy. I get to the top of the building and I can see McDonald's sign. I know which way we need to go for Dunkin Donuts. We leave the building and go pass McDonald's. We go into another building but it's the wrong way. The two guys are there as well. When I see the guy who likes me, I wanted to go to him and hug him but I didn't. They're following us trying to get the courage to ask us out. I smile.

12 Apr 2024

Dream

We were all camping and walked by a frozen river. There was a penguin swimming in it. It started raining and a guy stole the RV So we had to pile in the car. I laid down a towel so the seat wouldn’t get wet. a fish jumped out of the water and into the car I had to throw it back. When it wasn’t raining we were pushing bins up hill to the campground. My dad told me to tell Stephanie (AKA trouble) something but I forgot. We went to mom’s house in the basement to dad’s old office to give him something but the carpet was dirty down there and needed to be cleaned because something happened. I went to go use the bathroom. Then my dream ended

9 Apr 2024

Dream

i dyed my hair from black to white, my mom tried to break into my room and she did and then starts messing with my stuff and then she messes with something that’s dangerous, a lot of little kids and a lot of dogs try to break into my room they are pushing onto my door then the little kids are then sticking objects inside of my vagina little kids raping me with objects

9 Apr 2024

Dream

i dyed my hair from black to white, my mom tried to break into my room and she did and then starts messing with my stuff and then she messes with something that’s dangerous, a lot of little kids and a lot of dogs try to break into my room they are pushing onto my door then the little kids are then sticking objects inside of my vagina

7 Apr 2024

Dream

At my grandparents with my brother and getting on the back of the four wheeler and being chased he spee up the hill to his friends house bit it looks totally different from in real life there's a fence and a maze walkway to the door of his friends house it's r rally dark out and we see bright lights in the field behind the trailer. There are the giant dark skeleton things pushing these machines over the ground. Suddenly we re behind the trailer and there's more fence and hanging tarp one of the skeleton things looks in our direction and begins coming towards us across the field. We try to quickly hide I roll under the tarp and my brother plays dead right outside the tarp. I keep saying Craig get in here but he doesn't move I was scared for our lives. The skeleton pushed his machine as I watched he rolled it right over my brother's head as I watched and did nothing I felt my chest crushing and I didn't do anything to save him I layed there I felt like I was dieing inside my muscles felt like they were ripping off of my bones and I woke up gasping for air in teats and cried and screamed I felt all that pain in my body and felt hatred towards myself for not saving him. I have dreams of him dying I'm different ways all the time and I try to save him but never can I feel like I get so close then he dies horrifically right in front of me eveytime. I can never save him

5 Apr 2024

Dream

I remember one of the first dresms was inside my backyard Inwasndoingnsokerhint where inessntrtijgntongonogrrbthrnbrifkneslln but then after that I went to the table at the end of our backyard with my mom to spray paint on my clothes and a police helicopter dropped red paint all over me for some reason, I had to leave the house in the car to a grey day concert that my sister was talking about in the car there were so many people staring at me with the red spray paint but Indidnt care on the freeway the entire time that we’d do so I got into the car rolling the window down I remember when I went into the lobby area for the freeway race there was other people inside the girls locker room/ lobby aka preparation area and I had my things set down there next to tape so then I went and kept talking to people inside the locker room waiting going back and forth, and then when I got back in there was someone who I used to know before who was In my past but I didn’t care about them and then they came over to me trying to get my attention through doing things negatively, but Injust didn’t respond and got my stuff to change and get ready to go, while I left for one minute to the bathroom when I came back she was asking me questions like “Why would you do this to my own things huh? You care so much about myself that your a lesbian dyke reorganizing my shit.” and it was just my things coming back covered with tape on it next to hers which she purposefully stepped on to gather onto her clothes and my bags open which she unlogivslly somehow equated to me investigating her stuff , she was trying to get everyone else’s attention on her to create a problem, but then i responded calmly explaining how I don’t really care and that those things is clearly a problem with herself that she’s trying to projecting onto my life to make herself feel better about from putting me through making me look like i’m harassing her as the victim , she basically got upset from my non chalantness and everyone else inside of the room realized the situation from how i responded and just started ignoring her and acting like she was crazy, I didn’t care and I went out onto the kayaking boats on the freeway and while I was there, and inside the boats on the freeway she got next to mine and started saying in public “I’m still upset because I can’t believe you tried to steal my stuff” and then in response to that I started screaming since she was trying to get me evicted that l know she’s just lying about it when I only had my things next to her and had tape on my own yet she’s still trying to cause a fight about it because she’s determined to try and get me out because you just want to fight she hasn’t been relevant in my life for years and is still trying to live off of that to take advantage of it, when I said that everyone else was like “Oh girl. You should fight her back, Because if that was me.” and I remember instead of fighting defending myself to listen to them which got skyla to shut up and got them in trouble anyways while we were on the kayak boats after we accidentally got onto a escalator exit ramp that leads to the inside of a mall, i went inside there and there was a square room and as I kept progressing I was just in my thoughts relaxing but then I saw a girl who was crying in the middle of the escalator outside of the escalator on the sides of the room and I saw she was hurt so i went to her and hugged her saying “It’s ok.” and she kept crying, but then eventually after hugging her for a while after resting on my shoulders the entire time she said “You’re arms feel really strong.” and I got off from hugging her and she said “Oh your not the muscular man I was thinking.” and then I said “Yeah it’s because I have spray paint all over my hesd and body, but i’m ‘spanish.” I walked off smiling and I saw her happier and then when I went off the kayaking and down the escalator inside of the malll outisifenthe ecidt, I saw a group of my friends there ordering food and as I was trying to go to them to rrr was this man at the msll who was a security guard who I knew before that’s always trying to cause problems with me and to all my friends so he stood next to me and was about to do something but then he looked forward and saw the tripe double cheeseburger 49 he was obsessed with and he couldn’t stop staring at it so I just slowly left at the car for when we were going to the grey day concert my sister said, actually first what happened is we were all inside of this big bike neighborhood and it had a zoo inside, this neighborhood was for really good people in a community made by those who were well off, and as I got lost, before I got lost running out and going away from the people who dictate that I remember I went inside the original place and they said that we are a nuisance, as our family used to be one of the main leaders for that but now we’re in deep poverty which is ruining our reputation and image, and the image of them, so they couldn’t have us there but we’re deeply disgusted and dissapointed, and I said to them but does that dictate anything about us, and when my aunt was begging them around community she said yeah it does so i started going inside the place since this was the enterance to the community to find a way out away from them and I saw on my own a bunch of neighborhoods with people running bikes on each house, yet I was just trying to find a way out, and eventually when it got bad to a point where ai didn’t have much time left, I had to take someone’s bike to get out but I felt too bad stealing someone’s bike so I instead of ran all the way around the zoo area to find my house and get out of the dead end, and I did but it was behind and outside of the community entirely and when I got back we were in such poverty some homeless man tried stealing our car and things, so instead of pushing him out what I did was cooperate and say “Here instead of taking those things why don’t you take this,” and gave him 3 things and as I was gonna give more I said hold on and went back to the kitchen to grab pepper spray and a knife and came back spraying it to him to get him out with just those 3 items and he ran off but yet still broke the car door off our car and was so determined, but eventually we spoke through to him and he went up to us offering to help and then as we were leaving he just started stsying there helping out with the house too, and as I went into the backyard that’s when the spray paint thing happened etc, in the car with my mom once me and my sister got dropped off to the end of the freeway we were supposed to wait for my cousin and my aunt and mom to take us but what ended up happening is my sister had to take mom and my aunts car t the place but my cousin who said she was coming was apparently about to kayak me there, so waiting for her I looked everywhere on both sides for both the boats but I couldn’t find her, and I didn’t message her thinking communicating would send me back even further on time, so I just looked and after that I found one of the people from my school so I was going to get alisha and me to go into a kayak there on the freeway but then I went to the bathroom to check if she was there but then I saw someone else inside thet bathroom with their own stuff sitting half naked with shit in front of them and they were telling me about how they had a horrible day right now and were almost violently shitting inside that tub but I didn’t judge them instead I tried being understanding and said that sucks from how hard it’d be for them and that I thought they were actually my cousin at first but they were looking up to me having a conversation and then when I came back out I realized the kayaks were gone so i tried to call alisha but realized she had to go to the grey day concert without me so I was left back and abandoned by everyone else who was going to take me to there