27 Dec 2024
Dream
I was in a hotel or apartment with white walls and ceilings, dark carpet, and black railing. Folks from grad school were there, and I was in a room with my roommate Meghan. At one point we were all waiting for breakfast and I was sitting alone in a booth, facing away from the group. I was waiting for my friend and crush Cody to show up or say something, and I felt kind of resigned and hopeless about waiting. I sensed he was actually sitting behind me at a table with other men, and he said “so this is crazy” because he was about to leave without waiting for the meal. He was definitely trying to leave. Suddenly some emergency happened elsewhere in the building and the sprinklers went off. People were surprised but not scared or angry. We headed to our rooms because apparently that was safest. I remember being outside my room and being interrogated by police—I wasn’t nervous or upset, but I found it hard to speak or think clearly. I felt confused. There was another woman in the apartment, a friend of Meghan’s, and she was apparently living there too. I knew who she was but was confused about why she was living with us. I felt like Cody could hear me being incoherent and disoriented, and that made me kind of sad but again, resigned.
There were several group visits to a pool—one time it was dark out and Cody was naked in the water. He was shivering so I asked him if he was cold, and as he came out of the water I wrapped him in a blanket and tried to warm him up by hugging him and rubbing his arms. I said he could go back in the water and I’d take the blanket off as he did it (so it wouldn’t get wet and people were less likely to see him naked). After doing this I don’t remember much else.
I also remember watching Cody and another man go sledding, they had two dogs with them and were dragging sleds down a snowy tunnel. Cody was asking the man a lot of questions and didn’t trust him, because the man was inexperienced with sledding and was wearing shorts. The man seemed unkempt too and this all made Cody concerned and judgmental. The man had red hair, a red hat, and black boots or socks. I mostly remember his bare shins and the haphazard way he was pulling the sled down the tunnel.
Overall I felt sad and confused, there were emergency sprinklers, a pool, and snow so a lot of water, and I did things to support Cody but he was either unresponsive or evasive.
