8 Aug 2024
Dream
I was trapped in m my own head.
My dream started amazing. It started out with its own concept. A headquarters almost. For when i sleep. I walk into an office room with a lady and she directs me to the rest of the rooms where my dreams happen or other people or characters in my dream. Its a few rooms that are the backrooma behind my dreams, and its mine cause its my dream uou know? and everytime i got tired of a dream or wanted a new one, i would just clean up the rooms and walk outside the first door i came in through. Then when i walk right through everything resets. A new dream i can be in the backrooms of. And the door for me to walk through and experience the dream. i dont remember exactly how it started. But there was a nightmare that id lived before. I was experiencing it again and i knew what to do almost. I was in the living room with I and M and four men were trying to break in through the side door. I had. a gun. I opened the door and tried shootint them. but all of a sudden it had no ammo?. the last dream it did, so why didnt it now? i panicked and got scared so i chose to leave the nightmare. and to to headquarters through the door. It was different . the atmosphere was different. The people were moody and the office lady did not.. care?. it was odd. Eventually we started cleaning to start the next dream. I felt i hadnt done my part hut i thought maybe i should just try to see if we pass for the next dream. We then finished and a bright flash of light blinds all of us and when we close our eyes the SCORE of how well we all did overall cleaning, with the dream, everything us shown to us in our head. Usually this resets everything as i said. The room should be clean , new dream, new people.
But it didnt work this time? we looked around and it was the same. So i thought, my fault i didnt do as much as the others. So i clean, Still nothing,
I kept trying over and over again but it wouldnt reset. So i thought i should just walk in and out of the door dream. Since the dream hasnt been reset i should be sble to walk out and back in. But when i walked out i was in a, continued dream of the last one. The door was gone.
For some reason i knew how this dream was gonna go, but i still tried to live. A man in the frontyard trying to kill me, a roaming bear in the street, and dogs in the backyard barking. I climb a tree to escape this man. He can't reach me. Everytime i scream he gets back. This attracts the dogs who i hope help?. They dont. He pulls out a lighter from his pocket and lights it near the base of the branch im hanging onto. I move to a different branch. Im out of ideas? Im thinking so rapidly. He gets to my branch and hes about to light it. and for the first time in my own dreams, i beg for something not to happen. The lighter wouldn't start? it wouldnt start.
I forgot what got me thinking but for some reason i thought, "Maybe its cause i try to drag people down with me? ". And the mood changes again. My eyes open, ive come to a realization, maybe thats what im supposed to realize? what ive gotta take away?
To me, its like the dream ended. I jump off the tree. and start yelling THATS IT and repeating my thoughts, The man looks confused, as if ive broken the dream barrier wall, I run up to him, hug him and say thank you?
I walk towards the house and open this door expecting it to lead me to headquarters eith everything reset. I open it. Its worse than before. The office room is trashed, Abandoned and dark. I feel heavy. I thought i got it? I thought i reset everything? Ive tried everything i can? Why won't it reset. I dont want to be alone. Reliving my nightmares.
I walk past the office and the whole of headquarters is abandoned, trashed, and has a dim atmosphere. But i know someones there? The office lady in an, almost altered form as if she'd been corrupted. She wasnt perceivable, nothint but a feeling that you knew she was there, A black hole with slim eyes, thats the most you could see of her now. I was scared. What happened to her?
She talks to me, but looking back, maybe i was just talking to myself. I felt trapped in my own dreams, in my own head. I thought i was never gonna be able to wake up, dream another dream. To be left endlessly to figure out what i did wrong in order to deserve it.