30 Dec 2023
Dream
I woke up from a nightmare, I was back home, it appeared that the adults where not home, there were a couple of childhood children around, my fathers business partners children in fact, we were in their home. We were often there, on the daily, the children were talking about having to go play a game in the parents room, something about a swimming motion game. This shocked me as it appeared to be more of a situation that adults may be taking sexual advantage of the children under the disguise of playing a make believe game to cover the true acts being performed. In the same dream my grand father showed up as if coming home from work. I apparently had chores to do that I wasn’t aware of, cleaning up a living space? My room perhaps my grandfather was a very short tempered man, when he questioned me about tidying up my room I lied in fear of retaliation and a on the spot beating and said that I had cleaned up my room. Hoping that the the surface tidiness from a glance would suffice. However my grandfather was already triggered and fired up prior to getting back home, he was looking for an outlet. He went in my room and started ripping throngs apart? Pulling the bed away from the wall, undoing bedding and peeling back pillows which revealed a hidden covered up mess that was not cleaned up as expected. His face was bloodshot red with anger, he grabbed hold of a large leather belt and started lashing out at me, striking me over and over none stop over my arms, body and back, the attack came from the front like a monster on the attack, not from behind like a coward. He kept hitting and lashing me with the belt wildly in anger all I could do was whimper and cry trying protect myself from the lashings striking my face or head. He was enraged? I woke up suddenly while trying to protect my self by guarding my face body and head. He was so angry…
