Dream About Rebellion And Ex Boyfriend

I had a dream I moved into an apartment with some roommates and it was a really nice experience. Even my ex boyfriend was there but it was lovely. We all got along well. Fast forward a few years later and I’m with my current boyfriend, Nefer. A dark presence started to loom over this once beautiful city. An uprising was happening. Where I once went to have a drink or dance was now becoming a headquarters for a new regime of government. I snuck in and stole an old motorcycle. Scared that it would make noise and I would get caught, I pushed it idly and then started the engine once near a freeway so the other cars helped to drown out my revving of the engine. I remember helicopters were everywhere, looking for rebels against the new order. I found Nefer on a hilltop with a group of rebels gathering supplies. We decided to go back to my old apartment to gather intel, since it was in the heart of the new headquarters. Upon going in I saw my ex still there but he looked duranged and out of sorts. He wouldn’t get out of his bed. I noticed he was shirtless and upon examining his skin he had self harm marks all up and down his back and torso. He was laughing meniacly and wanted to have sex. Nefer and I saw it was hopeless and decided to leave him there. We started going back to the rebel base camp when I woke up.