Dream About Prostitution Drugs Boyfriend Falling Building Eating Meerkat

This dream was very personal. I don’t remember how my dream started but i remember that i met this guy because through someone else i got the chance to spend the night with him and he would pay me good money. (Prostitution) I took the deal thinking no one would find out (even my current boyfriend that is new in my life and i’m very in love with) and the guy was actually really nice and fun to hang out with. He was pretty young, blonde and blue eyes (even though i hate that) and we we’re out partying together with his friends. When we arrived at my home we had sex still outside in front of the frontdoor. Then we went up stairs to a small studio that was supposed to be my home and he gave me drugs to have. (I have recently become clean and sober). I took the drugs and out them in a nightstand and as we were hanging out, one of my colleagues bust into my place because in my dream he is the landlord and he looked at me mad, said i was being stupid and went away. Then it was clear for all the people in my home that i actually have a boyfriend and am doing this in secret. Then i talked with the blonde guy and i found out i’m being payed by the hour so he’s staying over the whole night. Not long later my boyfriend come into the room, apparently we were living together. And i immediately run to him to say sorry. He was pretty quiet about it and just walked away seeming he will never talk to me again. I screamed at him that i swore that even through everything wrong there i did not do any drugs, because that’s also really important to him that i don’t do that. He went away and i told everybody in my apartment to go away. and i think after that i was chasing my boyfriend for some time. After sending lots of texts and running through roads to try to talk to him, i realised that i lost him. Then i went back to my apartment feeling kind of defeated, i just destroyed my life. As i was still hanging out with this blonde guy who was actually really sweet about the situation, the building started softly falling down peace by peace so all of us went outside to sit and watch with this beautiful landscape. I was trying to film the scenery with my phone but on the video you saw 1 of the party people eating an alive meerkat. Yes, apparently we talked about that earlier in my dream. They offered me but i said no. I will never get this image of a cute meerkat being eating alive out of my brain.