Dream About Having A Baby In Hospital 2

Last night, I had a dream that I was home with Nate and the kids. I told Nate that I didn’t feel well and that I wanted to go to the hospital. He asked if I wanted him to go with me and I said “no, I’ll be OK. I’ll text you when I can keep you posted.” then the drain jumped to me being in a hospital gown sitting in a hospital bed as a nurse was handing me a baby. I just had I wasn’t showing. I didn’t even know I was pregnant. I was holding the baby who was so small because he was premature he wasn’t crying. He was just looking at me. He looked exactly like my son of A’vari when he first was born. I was in shock I kept saying to the black nurses (one was a man and one was a woman) I didn’t know I was pregnant and that we don’t have any room for any more children. They kept trying to lighten the mood by cracking jokes like “it’s time for a van now, sweetie” and I said we already have one and he won’t fit. I was imagining the van with Niys’ wheelchair in it that I drove to the hospital. Then I said “I don’t have a car seat for him. I guess I’ll have to use A’varis’ car seat.” then I was starting to breast-feed the baby. It was really detailed. I kept trying to readjust my nipple in his mouth to get a good wide latch. I didn’t text Nate, but he was blowing up my phone, asking me if I was OK.I didn’t text him. I decided I would go home, hide the baby in the car and then when the time was right, I’d bring out the baby. I was getting discharged so I started packing up things that they gave me and what I came with in a duffel bag and the plastic bags that they give you at the hospital. I drove home but when I arrived, the outside, didn’t look like my current house when I arrived there was a beige colored brand new jeep parked next to me. I couldn’t see who was inside at first, but I could hear them. It was Nay Nay, TJ and Tristian. I leaned up in my driver seat so that I could look back and see into the back of their car and Nina was helping Tristian get down out of the jeep. Nay Nay was standing and walking in my dream. In my waking life, Nay Nay is trying to relearn how to walk after she dealt with a sickness this past summer that has enabled her to be able to use her legs. Nay Nay Tristian met TJ at the front of the jeep ingredient me at my car window and some family who started walking out of the house. They said they came up for a short visit and they were headed to the movies in a little bit. I turned to the backseat of my car when people weren’t paying me any attention, and I laid the baby on top of some clothes in my duffel bag in the back of the van then I walked into the house. Little did I know that there was a family and friends get together going on in the house. Both of our moms were there,and there were some other family members as well as some of Nate‘s coworkers were in the house. Nate saw me and pulled me to the side to ask me if I was OK and what happened. I tried to brush it off like I had just had a bad stomach ache and that I was OK. It was a big house and the more I walked around the more people I noticed were there then I started to get the moms and Nate all in one room. I told them to wait for me. I went back to the van to get the baby because I was just going to walk in the room holding the baby when I got to the van I couldn’t find him. I looked in all the plastic bags the hospital gave me, but there was no baby. I began to panic, thinking the hospital was the only one who knew that I had a baby and if it disappeared, they were going to think I harmed the baby. I went back in the house in the room where the moms and Nate were and I told them I had a baby last night at the hospital and now I can’t find him in the car. They were surprised that the mom’s hopped up and immediately headed towards our van to help look Nate was in shock he asked “what? are you OK? Why didn’t you tell me this was going on last night?” I didn’t answer, but he just helped me. My mom was tearing through every bag she could find in that van until she stumbled across one bag that was on top of the duffel bag. She opened it and there he was just as small as ever and sleeping. She hugged him to her chest and ran back over to me. I was relieved when she handed him to me. He began to wake up and I realized it had been hours since he had eaten so I began breast-feeding him again, right where we stood surrounded by friends and family. Then I woke up.