Caroline, your dream paints a vivid picture of longing and disappointment, particularly regarding your relationships. The setting of a hotel suggests a temporary state or transition in your life, possibly indicating that you’re at a juncture where you’re reflecting on your connections with others. Birthdays often symbolize a time of reflection and celebration, and the absence of messages from Paul signals a deeper emotional need for recognition and validation from those closest to you. This feeling of not being acknowledged on a day that holds personal significance could point to a fear of neglect or the desire for affirmation in your current relationship.
When you checked your phone and found no message from Paul, it amplified this sense of isolation. The daily routine of receiving a good morning text from him represents a sense of comfort and intimacy that you value, and the sudden lack of it could symbolize anxieties about the stability of that connection. The fact that you were in a hotel, away from your usual surroundings, emphasizes this feeling of being adrift in your relationships, perhaps indicating that you feel uncertain or insecure about where you stand with Paul.
Encountering Paul in the dream, only to have him brush past you without a proper acknowledgment, mirrors the emotional disconnect you might be feeling. His indifferent response is crucial—perhaps it reflects an internal dialogue about your expectations versus reality in your relationship. It raises questions about whether your emotional needs are being met, and highlights your frustration about this perceived lack of effort on his part to celebrate you, especially on your special day.
As you moved to find the toilet, which symbolizes a personal space of release, you were met with obstacles—represented by a queue. This could indicate feelings of being stuck or unable to express your frustrations or needs in your waking life. The fact that you couldn't remember if you even reached the toilet suggests that perhaps your emotional needs are going unaddressed, amplifying your sense of confusion and frustration.
Finally, the bus scene represents a journey, a movement through your thoughts and feelings. Seeing birthday wishes from your ex and old friends instead of Paul heightens the narrative of neglect and comparison.