Dream About Upsetting Nightmare Friends Family Boyfriend Nick

My dreams keep getting more upsetting. Last nights dream was about my friends, my mom, and my boyfriend Nick. I’m not sure about the order of sequence, but here we go: in my waking life my relationship with my mother is estranged. In my dream, I think I was looking for my mom. I remember going to an event where I knew all my friends would be. (In my waking life I haven’t spoken to these friends in about eight months.) I was very nervous to see them. I was also supposed to meet my boyfriend there. When I arrived, my boyfriend was nowhere to be found. I asked his probation officer where he was. He laughed but wouldn’t tell me where to find him or how to get ahold of him. I felt a familiar pit form in my stomach. I knew something bad had happened. I started making my rounds around the room, saying hi to people I have not seen in quite some time. I was being happy and bubbly on the outside, even though I was falling apart internally. I saw Beau, who I’ve been friends with for over two decades and who used to be my best friend in waking life. He lives across the country so I wasn’t expecting to see him but was very excited. I ran up to him and jumped on him to give him a hug, and he hugged me back but wasn’t as enthusiastic as I was. Next I started seeing Alysha, Katie, Whitney, Kelly and amber. Whitney was the first one I spoke to. I was expecting more emotion and more questions as to why I’ve been MIA for so long. But it was more like just small talk. Then when I saw Amber, she pretended like she didn’t even see me and gave me the cold shoulder. I brushed it off, and continued socializing with other old acquaintances. I could tell by the way she looked at me with a look of annoyance that she was mad, so I decided to give her space and not go up to her. At some point I acquired a phone and was talking to my boyfriend Nick. He said “it went really, really wrong” and I could hear the distress and pain in his voice. “They gave me ten years.” Then the line was cut off, so I didn’t get any more of an explanation than that. I think he had gone to talk to his probation officer about something, and somehow he ended up getting thrown in prison and was going to be there for ten years, leaving me seven months pregnant with our two other children to fend for ourselves. As I’m going around the room talking to people I haven’t seen in a while, I’m trying to open up and tell them how I’ve been sober for over a year now, but I didn’t receive that “congratulations, good for you” that I was expecting. At the end of the dream I was speaking to someone, trying to find my mom. They asked me a question about her, and I can’t remember all the details but it was as if i needed a certain piece of information that I didn’t actually have, and if I didn’t have that information it was either going to prevent me from searching for her further, or actually get myself into some kind of legal trouble. The answer I gave them was a guess, and the person got up to go check the information, and basically said it would be good enough. But that’s when my daughter in waking life woke me up from my dream.