Ari,
That dream sounds incredibly intense, and I understand how upsetting it would be to experience something like that. While I cannot offer any therapy recommendations directly, I can provide some insights based on the information you've shared.
The violent act of stabbing your family members in the dream might symbolize a deep sense of frustration or suppressed anger you might be harboring towards them. It's important to remember that dreams often use symbolism, and the act of stabbing doesn't necessarily mean you wish physical harm on them.
The stabbing action might represent a desire to create distance or sever emotional ties. Are there any specific conflicts or tensions you're experiencing within your family right now? Sometimes, unresolved issues can manifest in our dreams in symbolic ways.
It's also significant that the dream culminates with you stabbing yourself in the throat. This could symbolize a sense of self-harm, silencing yourself, or feeling unable to express your own needs and feelings.
Given the high emotional intensity, negative feelings associated with this dream, and its nightmarish quality, it might be helpful to explore these emotions further.
You could try journaling about the dream and your relationship with your family, and identifying any specific triggers or unresolved conflicts. If the feelings of negativity and anger persist, consider talking to a trusted friend or seeking professional support to help you process these emotions in a healthy and constructive way.