Dream About Queen Of Beijing And Homemade Cookies

Georgie, your dream is a fascinating and complex tapestry of your subconscious mind, weaving together themes of admiration, familial relationships, and a journey of self-discovery. The initial part of your dream, where you are playing a video game and being jump scared by a Chinese woman dressed as a samurai, suggests a confrontation with a powerful and intimidating figure. This figure, whom you admire and call the 'queen of Beijing,' symbolizes a force that brings life and wealth, yet also instills fear and challenge. The ATM machine she brings in may represent a source of sustenance or opportunity, but her overwhelming presence on the screen when you are defeated signifies a sense of being overpowered or dominated by this external force. As the dream shifts to your childhood home on the ranch, the contrast between homemade cookies and store-bought 'crap' highlights a longing for authenticity and the comfort of familiar, homegrown values. The graham cracker truck delivering blue boxes, which are placed on top of gold boxes, could signify the layering of new experiences or values over older, perhaps more cherished ones. Your parents' discussion about the queen of Beijing being an evil gangster reflects an internal conflict between admiration for external success and a loyalty to your roots and values. The special Kool-Aid/Jello cookie recipes your mom wants to teach you symbolize unique family traditions and knowledge that are passed down, yet your mom's hesitation to share them directly and the need for a 'class' indicates a rite of passage or a readiness test. Your excitement about the class, contrasted with the embarrassment of wearing a ripped shirt and the struggle to find an appropriate one in your mom's closet, reflects feelings of inadequacy or unpreparedness. Your mom dressing you in a stained shirt, despite your complaints, suggests a tension between your desire for self-expression and the imposition of external standards or expectations. The blocked sink and your efforts to work around it symbolize obstacles in your path that require creative solutions. The class itself, led by an Asian woman who appears related to the queen of Beijing, and the trance-like state of the participants, indicate a journey of initiation and transformation. The repetitive trudging around the porch, through dirt, and over boulders, mirrors a cycle of challenges and growth. The woman's questioning about your favorite song and your response aligning with heavy bells of Iron Maiden may suggest a connection to a deeper, perhaps rebellious part of your identity. The encounter with insects under the boulders, initially terrifying but later revealed to be harmless rollypolies, represents the overcoming of irrational fears through a shift in perception. The horrific scene of the dark-haired woman being suffocated, followed by the Asian woman's displeasure at your reaction, reflects a fear of losing your individuality and being coerced into conformity. Your father's involvement and the woman's attempt to drug and hypnotize you indicate a struggle between external influences and your own will. Ultimately, Georgie, your dream encapsulates a journey of self-discovery, grappling with external pressures, familial expectations, and the quest for authenticity. It suggests a need to balance admiration for powerful figures with a grounding in your own values and traditions, while navigating the challenges and transformations that come with personal growth.