Dream About Lodge Cold Weather Performance Confusion

So I dreamt that I was at a place like it was a lodge. There's a few wooden houses, lodge houses, and I remember people from my past that usually we got to meet during December holidays. They were also there, there were a lot of people. I remember the lodge house that I stayed in. I was alone, but it didn't seem like I wanted to be there. I had a hard time getting out of bed and it was cold. I had a hard time figuring out what to wear, but it didn't seem like I had many stuff to choose from. I didn't have a lot of clothes. It seemed like I was unprepared for this trip or whatever it was, and I just didn't want to go. I took a lot of time to get dressed. I wore tights, black tights, sneakers, and a hoodie, and I remember I had my old phone, a Nokia, which it didn't have reception, and I was irritated because I wanted to talk to my husband. Eventually when I got outside, the weather was also cold. The place is beautiful where the lodge was located, but it had this mist covering the red sand, and where it was located it was just cold. Then I met up with a person that was older than me, a girl, a female, and I remember she asked me what was wrong, because she could see something was wrong, and I just told her I can't talk to my husband, and I'm just, I didn't want to be there, but it's a beautiful place, and I want to experience this place, and then the dream skipped to where there was a lot of people, even my family, in like a stage building where you can sit in the crowd and watch the stage where people perform, but it was very casual. There was a group of seven or eight people on the stage, and I had to go also and do something, but I wasn't prepared, and so I decided to just do handstands and splits and stuff, because it's something I'm good at, but there was a girl, they laughed at me, and they were questioning what am I doing, like my performance isn't good enough, and I remember looking at her, and I was confused, and I was just, I didn't feel good enough, so I stopped what I was doing, and I stormed outside of the building, and I remember the people that I now knew that was in the crowd just, they looked at me as I was walking out, and that was the dream.