Dream About Intense Erotic Encounters

My dream tonight was really intense. I would be talking to people outside my room, and then whenever I went into my room, no matter where I was he would come and touch me. Rub against me. It felt like my body was on fire. He didn’t kiss me or anything and yet it felt I was high on his touch. Like just his finger brushing against me made my core clench and my heart beat faster. And it was so intimidating. I couldn’t see him I just sensed male. Like something was blinding my eyes and yet I could feel his body. Sometimes see bits of it but no detail. I couldn’t even say what color his skin was. It was dark tho- I’m not sure there’s a way to describe how intense he made me feel. Like the most erotic- euphoric feeling. Like how one would describe exctasy- with just him being near me. He didn’t have to even touch me for my body to start burning up. And the closer he got the more I felt like I was vibrating. And the craziest part was I was terrified. Because I don’t know him and every instinct I have. Ever normal instinct was like RUN AWAY HES GONNA HURT YOU. and when he got near me it felt so intense. Like I couldn’t see him but it felt like his eyes were lasers or something and I could feel them vividly. Painfully present. But I didn’t move away. I felt like I was supposed to and yet I wanted him so bad. And everything in me that says “I deserve respect, I want a gentleman, I think I should be treated like a lady” died as soon as he touched me. And it didn’t matter. I wanted him to use me. Touch me anywhere as long as he simply touched me. And he rubbed his cock against my hole and I lost it. I couldn’t move. I was desperate. Hoping he’d just push in and put me outta my shameful misery. Because I hate this. I hate him for making me like this. And I’d give anything for him to simply fuck me. And he didn’t. But he pushed in just a little and I felt tight. Like pain would come with just a bit more but it didn’t matter because it just felt so right. I don’t like what he’s turning me into. I don’t care what he does to me I just wish he’d treat me as an equal. I wish I didn’t have to feel like less for submitting. I wish I mattered more.