Dream About High School Embarrassment And Freedom

I went to high school again popular and all but I also had exes and men just fall for my personality. I mean a lot of men but I feel sympathetic so I give a little chance but I never liked them. I talked to one dude and told him that if he behaved I would give him good head and I invited him, my friends, and my family to my birthday party. My crush came and all my exes came. I hugged my ex-crush and proceeded to greet everyone and I was flirting with my ex-crush with all these men who liked me upset because they didn't have my attention like they wanted it. So a dude sitting in my father's chair to decided to embarrass me and tell people my promise out loud “She promised she would give me good forehead.” I didn't want be seen as a hoe so I told my family in the living room as the judging looks spread across their faces I stated. “I’m grown. I have the right to experience things like y’all did so stop judging me.” And I turned to the guy and said “Since you wanna embarrass me like that you’re not getting shit.” I looked at my friends and I stormed out and they followed. Everybody in the house started talking but the boys including my ex crush talked about me. Timeskip. It’s the afternoon and I’m walking with 2 of my friends telling them “I want to leave high school so I can have freedom.” They asked why and told me I have freedom just go outside in the rain and blast music and dance. So we did outside of school and as soon as my friend helped me up I got ambushed by a guy who likes me his head falling in the waterfall but not all the way in he had water splashing his face with the tightest grip. He confessed his feelings and I was deeply embarrassed as everyone looked at me I told him I see him as a friend and he let me go I stand by my friends as his friends help him up while he was shocked about to cry and everyone went inside I stayed with my best friend and told her. “Maria I’m scared, I don’t want to hurt they feelings but I can’t keep being so nice anymore.” And she told me “Well Z what do you want to do.” And I told her, “I don't know but I'm going to have to conclude this today and I'm scared.” we turned around and walked into the school building, and the dream faded.