Dream About Family Separation And Loss

It was me, my grandparents. We were all hanging out at home watching tvvand my grandpa was barbecuing burgers and steak. At some point my dad and two of my siblings came over my younger brother Matthew and my sister Megan. I asked Megan if she was interested in playing video games with me she said yes. Then all of a sudden my father told my siblings that it was time for them to go. My grandma asked them why were they leaving so soon. My dad told her that he hates being around me and my grandparents and that he’s unhappy about everything. I told him “it’s not our fault you’re constantly angry and passed off.” I then told him to talk to my biological mom because in reality that’s what he was so angry. Anyway back to that dream. My dad and my siblings ended up leaving and i was so sad and angry. I then told my grandma that my dad is a poor excuse of a father for taking my siblings away from me like that. Now in reality I really can’t stand being around my father because of what he did to me years ago when I was sick with an inflamed appendix. This was back in 2008. Anyway when I woke up from this dream I was crying because of how much I miss my siblings and how I wish I lived closer to them. My younger siblings are the only family members who make me happy and feel loved. Everyone else in my family pisses me off especially my father. It kills me inside everyday that I hardly see my siblings. I consider them my babies. I talk to them whenever I can. All I can tell you is that if either of them dies before me especially Megan I’ll be beyond pissed off and would lose the will to live. To my younger siblings Samantha, Mia, Megan and Matthew I love and miss you so much. Everyday it kills me inside that we hardly see each other. You kids bring me joy and happiness therefore I keep going for the sake of you kids. I can’t imagine losing any of you. Once again I love and miss you so much.