Dream About Ex Cruise Tightrope

Ok so first I was living with my mom and grandma (who I lived with up until 3 months ago she kicked me out for sneaking my ex over in real life) my mom was trying to have my Cousins come over but I was hiding in the bathroom trying to look good and did not want to come out to see them (in real life I have a substance abuse problem im usually always in treatment) then it cuts to me staying on the couch with my grandma and not wanting to move as though that was my safe space. Then cut to me and my ex we are in space walking on a tightrope also I know it’s me and my ex in the dream but it’s never his face and I’m always trying to find him we are never home always in vacation setting and there’s always water around. Like I’m always on a cruise looking for him