Dream About Mental Illness Struggle

Headache is gone, finally slept good. Now, I understood the ramifications of my actions so while I was running I stopped, looked around, and saw the hurt that I caused. However, as I looked around, I was still trying to figure out what was real and what was not. I had not forgotten, but I fought with myself. This is a daily thing that I deal with the weather things are real or not. In living with mental illness I would have to say my whole life, and not realizing the hurt that I am flicked on people and people have inflict upon me where I wouldn't say anything and just let it roll off my back is damaging me. I was sad because I miss the people in my life that were once there. I still did not know what was real or not things were a hologram where you can just swing your hand through an image that is in front of you. Things have to change because I am changing into a horrible person. However, I will listen to myself and will become the best human for me instead of concentrating on other people. It's time to let go of old ways and appreciate one breath at a time.