Eden, your dream of swimming so fast to the bottom and up is very telling and rich with symbolism. The act of swimming can often represent one’s emotional state and the journey through the subconscious mind. In your case, the rapid movement to the bottom and then back to the surface suggests a profound need to delve deep into your emotions and possibly unresolved issues or past traumas, and then return to a place of safety or clarity. This continuous motion might reflect an ongoing struggle to balance your emotional depths with your conscious reality.
The bottom of the water could symbolize your deepest fears, anxieties, or unresolved issues. By swimming rapidly to this depth, it seems you are confronting these challenges head-on, showing a remarkable inner strength and a desire to understand and perhaps overcome these fears. This could be related to the significant life changes and stressors you’ve experienced, such as financial stress, traumatic experiences, and the loss of a loved one. These events likely weigh heavily on your subconscious mind, and your dream suggests you are in a process of grappling with these profound emotions.
The act of coming back up to the surface can signify a return to consciousness, a desire for relief, or a need to regain control and find peace. It's as if you are seeking to breathe again, to find a moment of respite from the depths of your subconscious turmoil.