Peter, your dream about your friend from the cruise reflects a mix of longing and unresolved emotions tied to your connection with her. The secretive messaging and her flirtatious emojis could symbolize an unspoken or hidden aspect of your relationship that you wish could be more open or acknowledged. The presence of her boyfriend, who seems to admire your ways, might represent a part of you that desires recognition and respect, particularly in the realm of relationships and friendship.
The fact that this dream took place in the past, in November or December, indicates a lingering attachment to those memories and possibly to the feelings you had at that time. Your expressed wish to maintain a friendship despite the potential for something more suggests a maturity in handling complex emotional dynamics. It's also clear that you value her happiness and peace, which is a testament to your caring nature.
Looking at your previous dreams, there's a recurring theme of seeking acceptance and belonging, as well as managing intense emotions. The dream where you felt unwelcome initially, then later felt better after social interactions, connects to your current dream's theme of social dynamics and the desire for positive connections. Your past dreams also indicate a struggle with feelings of abandonment and a yearning for a place or time where you felt more secure and valued, such as your time in school.
In this most recent dream, your subconscious may be processing the complexities of your interpersonal relationships, highlighting a wish for harmony and a fear of loss. This dream, though it has an emotional level of 5 and doesn't contain negative feelings or classify as a nightmare, still touches upon sensitive matters of the heart that are important to you. Through this dream, your mind appears to be exploring the possibility of reconciliation and the continuation of a platonic relationship, despite the challenges you've faced.
Overall, your dreams are rich with emotional processing and the pursuit of understanding within your social world. They reveal a deep sensitivity to the nuances of relationships and a strong desire for genuine connection and acceptance.